I’ve been thinking about just writing more. Not necessarily about my life, but to stretch my creative muscles. So tonight after baby B fell asleep without a fuss at 7:30 leaving me a rare bit of ‘me time’, I Googled writing prompts. I came across one that was to write a broken-hearted song and thought I’d run with it. I used to participate in an online group that wrote limericks and this ended up a bit more in that vein than as an actual song. It’s sort of a twist on the standard broken-hearted perspective. It’s so easy to understand someone’s pain when they are dumped. Sometimes, there is just as much pain when you’re the one that walks away. It’s possible to really want something to work out while knowing that it isn’t going to.
Just Because I Left
I’m writing to say that just because I left you there
Didn’t meant that I didn’t care
Because I walked away it would be easy to think
That it didn’t make my heart sink
‘Cause I felt like I was left without air
Just because I knew that I had to be done
Didn’t mean that I didn’t wish you were the one
Because I left it might seem you didn’t matter
But between the two of us, I ended up the sadder
I really wanted it to work for the long run
It’s hard because there were so many precious things
Times when I was so happy for my phone to ring
Do you remember how we used to laugh?
So much hope and promise, but only for the first half
Then it started to feel too much like a boxing ring
Can I even explain how I feel so conflicted?
I loved you so much I felt like I was addicted
I would have given so, so much
At night I lay awake longing for your touch
And then I ended up feeling so restricted
I used to feel that we had our own secret code
It was hard to accept that things had plateaued
I thought so much about our future
I felt I’d rupture my frontal suture
Which is a crafty way of saying I thought my head would explode
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I was thinking about someone the other day and reading you poem seemed to bring out some things that … I remember.
I Remember
I remember coconut drinks and counting trees
Seemed like we were there before I could sneeze
I remember sharing some fajita nachos
Having some lunch instead of a brunch
I saw a table with a daughter, the little girls father
And the girl in the dress who seemed to care less
I remember roller coasters that ran double
Leaving one a bit loopy and someone that got in trouble
I remember a car through the leaves of a tree
A race down the stairs who the first one was me
Only to find that a wrong turn was me
I remember a yucky sandwich that I ate in a rush
To continue a journey that was done in a hush
A simple surprise before her eyes
Not a clue of what was inside
Until it came out of the bag with little blue eyes
I remember a trip down the hill with little instruction
Waiting for step three I got up from my knees
And headed for total destruction
I remember a day in December
Sitting in my room thinking about someone
And so many things I’ll always remember